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Like little razor blades cutting off pieces of my skin short and snappy. Slowling my skin began to burn like lave as the fairies zapped me with their wands like lightening. Surely they release their electric fury and I drop face flat stinging, burning, dying. "Don't worry, you'll sure be a fairy yet." one sparkley voice twinkled in my bleeding ears. "Now a little fairy dust." and the next thing I'm like a planet being crashed by asteroids and meteors. Nothing could go numb, nothing would go numb; only a burning so deep it touched your bones; to your core. As if hell was bad enough, you had this to deal with now, too. Oh, no, this isn't hell, this is a realm; the ones with fairies and giants and what not. "Is it nice there?" you might ask. Well, I don't know, it's good and bad, what ever you believe. At least that'd what I've been told.

Yeah, we're just like glue...

I tried to be like glue and keep everything together,

But I failed at even the simplest of requests,

Only the ones that mattered.

Is this really it? Am I done?

I’m trying, but who cares anymore?

I don’t. I don’t know why I do what I do if I’m not happy.

I miss you, I love you, I hate this.

When is it my turn to leave?

Why am I the one that always stays?

Why can’t I move on just as easily?

I’m so lost without you.

Everything and everyone changes; I know.

I guess I just never thought it’d happen to us.

I know I’m just lost.

I just don’t know how long…

Idk.

Crawling from the emptiness you left me in, I wonder why I didn't see it from the start. Your words were like a taste of heaven. So sweet and kind and delicate. You trapped me like a trance. It's like you knew, but how could you? You knew nothing about me. I was a mystery to you just as you were to me. But everything became clear and I found out you weren't who I thought you were. Scared of losing you or scared of being what I hate. I chose both and look where it's gotten me.

What did I do to deserve this? It feels like you can give me everything, but love. Does it feel good to hurt me? You're a fresh a cut. I've been bleeding, holding on so tight for so long. For what? To be hurt all over again worse than before.

It's nice when I get your phone call at night,
but I'd rather have you here with me,
right next to me.
-Natalie

What I wouldn't give to have you right next to me.
Your hand in mine.
My head against your chest listening to the rythym of your heartbeat.

You're like heroin.
So addicting, but all around horrible for me.
Great for a little until if all goes down hill.

Quote.

Quotes

A kiss with open eyes is a lie.

Don't leave the one you love for the one you like. Because more than likely the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Yeah, well you're not the only one who's scared of getting hurt. So, lets forget our worries and let something that's great, be spectacular.

Lets play truth or dare. Well, just dare since no one tells the truth anymore.

"I don't wanna feel the way that I do.

I just wanna be right here with you.

I don't wanna see us apart.

I just wanna tell you straight from my heart,

I miss you."

-Basshunter: I Miss You

&& Today I woke up and my first thought was finally about something beside you.

It's hard to be original in a world of copiers.

I'm damaged from the inside. I've
been broken, so don't threaten me
with what you think i feel. If you
read my mind, you'd be in tears.

and this is my life
getting dumped with no warning
or liking people who don't like me back
or who don't like me enough
or not as much as they like someone else

you know that quote..
the one that says forget about the people in your past
there is a reason that they didnt make it to your future?
yeah well what happens when in the future they do come back?

Sometimes I wish he'd pay a little bit more attention to my favorite songs.

Because they explain everything I can't.

wouldn't life be perfect
if sweatpants were sexy
if monday mornings were as fun as friday nights
if junk food never made you fat
if girls never caused drama
& if guys weren't so confusing 

your boyfriend becomes a prick
homework goes in the trash
cellphones are being used in class
detention becomes suspension
soda becomes beer
gum becomes pot
bikes become cars
lollipops becomes cigarettes
lipgloss becomes makeup
french kissing becomes hookups
yupp ... we`re growing up

the teenage years are the best years of our lives
even though theres tons of drama, tears & heartbreaks
theres also friends that you trust and will never
leave your side, there's the boy who whenever you
see you get butterflies in your stomach, theres
parties & breaking the rules. now tell me, at
what other point in your life are you going to be
able to have all those things all at once?

remember when we were little & the
biggest decision we had to make was
to either go on the swings or the
monkey bars during recess. or how the only
fake people we knew were barbie & ken.
or how the only way our friends could
disappear was in a game of
hide & seek. & the only drama that
happened was when your best friend
stole your cookie at lunch.

weve been through it all --
the 'teen' drama ,
the boy problems
the fights that lasted minutes --
the fights that lasted weeks to months,
the days where we
nonstop laughed over nothing
the nights where we cried
because nothing was going right
&& even sometimes
now
our friendship ended over a stupid fight